I have been extremely twitchy this weekend. Twitchy and yet feeling so blah that I can't function. I wanted to just sit still and lounge around and be all relaxed and have quality time with Becca. And, instead I tried to sit down and just felt like either crying or sleeping or getting up and doing something, but when I got up to do something I didn't have enough energy and my pelvis hurt and my feet hurt and my ankles hurt, so I just sat back down and TWITCHED. I feel like I'm about to crawl out of my skin! I can't even nap. I just lay there and stare at one of the 34 pillows surrounding me. My eyes won't shut, despite getting very little sleep at night.
And I'm feeling guilty about not doing more fun things with Becca and letting her watch too much TV and not taking full advantage of these last few weeks of her being my only child. I feel like I'm failing her and her world is about to turn upside down and I can't even get enough energy to take her to a playground. I have run out of steam.
I finished my book the other day, and have read every other book in the house and can't find anything that will keep my mind from just racing in circles. I can't even read a magazine article without feeling like I'm about to jump out of my own body. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?
So,that is the latest update from Woe Is Me Central. Please send tranquilizers and a live-in maid at your earliest convenience. Thank you.
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