I am officially losing it. I AM! I cannot seem to leave the house because I am about to lose my cool with this stupid-ass swine flu. I was supposed to visit a friend today and I cancelled (hello, Noel! Thank you for not laughing at me!) This is ridiculous! I am aware of that. I am a freak. But whenever I think of something I want to go do, I just have this image in my head of some infected person (during the incubation period, before symptoms show up) touching all the surfaces of the place where I want to go. And then, I can't go. I just can't. I start to hyperventilate. I think about Andrew and how we don't really know if the fetal blood transfusion/anemia thing affected his immune system. We are supposed to have his white blood cell count taken sometime this year and until I know the results of that, I worry. I think about Becca being hospitalized last time SHE had a virus.
The infected victims in Texas are basically from this neighborhood. Shopping at the stores we go to here, eating at the restaurants near us, hanging out at parks around here. Touching the door handles in all public places. I know this virus is out there and I know it is out there IN THIS NEIGHBORHOOD. I don't think I would be this worried if I were not THIS close to it. So, I can't seem to get myself to go anywhere.
But I can't just sit inside being scared, either. That isn't healthy. I swear I need professional help. Seriously.
That's all I'm going to say about that. New subject, PLEASE.
We've been having a great time here. I have tons of cute photos that I need to post but that would require rifling through my trashed suitcase to find the card reader and then finding the USB port, and well...that might just be too much work for someone on vacation! So, maybe tomorrow. For now, I am glad the sun is shining and the kids are napping. I'm off to think positive thoughts and to convince myself to get out of the house!
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