Thursday, September 10, 2009


I'm sitting here in a quiet house. The windows open, chilly air coming in, an autumn breeze rustling the leaves outside. The news is on, the paper is next to me. I have a few moments to wake up in peace, start the toaster, drink some coffee....

Why don't I set my alarm and wake up before the kids every day? It is so nice to wake up slowly instead of being tossed into a hurricane the minute my eyes open. Kids demanding things left and right, everyone needing something right now. I love being dressed and caffeinated before they emerge.

Today I really need to clean the house. I will never, ever understand how it happens, but it gets trashed so fast. I know I have young kids, and that they drag toys left and right and up and down, and dump out boxes of things, and empty cabinets, and dirty laundry, and spill things and throw food on the floor....but how am I unable to stay on top of it? I can manage to keep it somewhat together if I never, ever let down my guard and make sure I'm doing something all the time to maintain order. That gets old, day after day. I don't have enough motivation to be constantly vigilant. If I give up for one evening, it all goes to shit. It doesn't seem fair that just because I have to watch three episodes of Mad Men, that the house should descend into squalor. And why does it still bother me? You'd think I'd be over it by now. I'm a Taurus. Stubborn.

I'm feeling a little better about the onset of fall than I was a few weeks ago. I usually love the transition into wearing jeans and sleeping with the windows open, buried under a down comforter. I look forward to autumn leaves, pumpkin patches, apple harvesting festivals. I've been panicked this year because of that pesky H1N1 thing that has me all in a tizzy. I'm trying to keep it in perspective. I'm so tired of worrying about it, that I'm going to try a new technique--denial, ignoring, and chanting a new mantra to myself "It may be a sucky virus season, but we're all going to be fine. We're all going to be fine."

I'm going to try to just enjoy the season for what it really is: Feeling comfortable outside, the routine of preschool, the smell of Yankee Candle's Harvest candles, and the arrival of Pumpkin Spice Lattes at Starbucks.


sgtsharp said...

you have a newspaper?! WTF! I get my news from Foxnews&CNN & the internet I only buy a newspaper if I need to wrap something. then there is & dearabby online. Its always better to get up b4 da kiddos & get a cup of java into your veins dealing with a PMS teenager is no walk in the park either.

BTW does anybody here what 140 yr old Square Grand Piano????Free. just come to MN & Pick it up.

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Angie said...

On the rare day when I wake up before the kids, I'm afraid to move. I don't want to wake them! Part of this is our current home, though. Christopher's room is right next to the living room, and Ashlyn is in a loft bedroom without a 4th wall.

Angela said...

I LOVE getting up before the kids. It makes my day go so much smoother. I do admit that I am so tempted to stay in the bed though.

Joy said...

Cute mug.

Erin said...

Oh. You just HAD to go mention pumpkin spice lattes, DIDN'T YOU?


Jen said...

Mmmmm, pumpkin spice lattes!! Candles! Leaves falling! Cool weather! I think I have a few weeks/months to go on that last one. But I can't wait! I love fall.

I also love getting up before the kids. Doesn't it make you feel like you have a firm grasp on the day when you can sit in peace (and daylight) and drink a warm beverage and watch some news without a little person pulling on you?

The Peregos said...

Ditto. The day is better when I get out of bed before the kids find me. Even if I'm up 3 minutes before them, I am up! By myself. I wasn't pulled or begged out of bed. Beautiful.

Anonymous said...

Scientific studies have shown that young children have an internal clock that's set to wake them early in the morning. Teenagers, on the other hand, are natural night owls. Our school district even changed the start times so that elementary schools started earlier than middle and high school. Enjoy your early morning quiet time!
(Great) Aunt Linda