The Diva Diaries

Okay. Whew! Glad that is over. Now I just sit around and wait until this weekend when they let people know. They have three DAYS of auditions. I went on the first day. I'm not sure if that is good or bad. It was by far the most intense audition I've ever had. As I was sitting around waiting for my turn, I read a brochure about the group and learned they have won an Emmy Award. That just got me even more nervous.

I got there about an hour early, thinking I would have time to sing, warmup, be alone and collect my thoughts. But, since the church was close to downtown Baltimore, there were no open doors. I just had to sit in this waiting area with everyone else, clutching my thermos of tea and honey, my to-go cup of chicken broth, my throat lozenges and my bottle of water. Freak girl on the loose!

I tried not to talk too much all day. I drank my body weight in Throat Coat tea. I avoided dairy products. I didn't let any fan or air conditioning blow directly on me. God, I'm glad that is over.

So, my turn came up. It was just the choral director and the pianist. I sang my Mozart aria--the high notes just floated right out! My throat was still hurting, but it didn't seem to affect my vocal chords too much. I sang the awfully high Beethoven piece and messed up one part that he made me do again. The pianist hit a few wrong notes and I think I sang right along with him, which is bad. The whole time I was singing, the director was just writing and writing. He didn't look at my once during either song. I had been working on my emotions and how to convey them. I was acting dammit! And he never even looked!

Then, I had to do the hard part--the tonal test. I HATE that. They play all these weird note combos and you have to sing them back. I got all of them but the last one, which was a whole note scale. I just could NOT get it. I tried it about four times and I don't even know if I ever got it right. The sightreading was next. I messed up a little bit. But, overall, I felt it was probably an accurate representation of my singing abilities. So, now I just have to wait until this weekend to hear something!

Jane and John left this morning to head back to South Carolina. Luckily John is home for a couple days, so it won't feel completely empty around here. I hardly took care of Becca at all for the last four days. It is amazing how much more I appreciate and miss her when I get a bit of a break. It isn't that I don't appreciate her normally, but I just get worn down from being on constant duty. Last night after my audition, I couldn't wait to get home and see her again. Funny how that works! She gave me a big hug and said, "I missed you!"